day twentyfive

dear god

thank you for today. thank you for another day to spend with the two boys. thank you for all of the moments. the things that used to feel mind numbingly mundane now seem so filled with purpose. i know that that is not the reason for losing frank and ezekiel but i thank you that we see things so differently now. thank you for the sunshine and the warm weather. thank you that we have a space to play outside and cool drinks and lots of healthy choices to snack on as well as good meals. thank you that i was able to make it to richelle's baby shower and that her friends are treating her taking a foster child as legitimately as they would have if she'd had a biological baby. that encourages me.

i ask that you be a strong presence in frank and ezekiel's lives right now.

i ask that you give sean and i deep wisdom and patience for our two boys who have a lot to wrestle with right now and as they grow up.

there's been so many natural disasters recently and i just ask that you would work these tragedies together for good. that people would see hope rather than despair.

i ask that you would forgive me for all of the ways i failed today. sometimes i try to be good and then do the wrong thing and think "dang....but i didn't know what else to do...." help me to make more wise choices, in my mind and in my actions and in my words.

please help us all to sleep great and wake up ready to serve each other and those around us as well as to be kind and respectful.

amen...