day fourteen

dear god

thank you for today. thank you for our great meeting with tylon. thank you for a great county social worker who cares about the kids. thank you for protecting tylon from too much trauma and that he is excited about joining our family. thank you that colton seemed to like him and seems excited about bringing him home. thank you that sean is getting excited and that maybe you're healing our hearts because both of us are surprised at our ability to feel like parents to him after losing frank and ezekiel. thank you for good naps after an emotionally draining day. and for fun at disneyland.

thank you so so much that my boy is so sensitive and aware and tuned in to the hurts of others. i am so thankful and proud of him for seeing the homeless man that was asking for dinner and for insisting we buy him dinner. i pray that he never loses that sensitive heart and that we always make the time to help others even when we're on our way to do other things.

i pray for frank and ezekiel. in some ways getting ready to be placed with tylon is making me miss them more. and in some ways it feels healing. i only feel better if i can believe that where they are now, and where you have planned for them is something amazing and better than we could ever give.

i pray that tylon and his current foster family are getting ready for the move and i'm so thankful for the work they've done to help him reach his potential so far.

i pray for kristen and the work she does recruiting, and i pray for the kids on her case load. that she is successful finding awesome homes for all of them.

i thank you for the reminder today that while we are building our family we are doing ministry too and that really helped us be flexible. keep reminding us of that when the times get super tough.

i pray that colton will grow up to be a mighty man of god and love you and serve you. i pray for the relationships he will have as an adult and that they would be encouraging.

i ask that you give sean a safe drive home tonight and that he can have super restful sleep for our play date with tylon tomorrow. thank you that i have a husband that works so hard to provide for us.

i ask that you would forgive me for all of my ugliness today. feeling uncomfortable with people looking at us when we bought david dinner, getting irritated that crystal wanted a little more time with tylon, being distracted when i was with colton 'cause i was too busy thinking about the next two weeks leading up to placement. please help me to do better tomorrow. i want to be more present with colton.

help us to sleep great and treat each other with respect and kindness and be ready to serve each other.

amen....