day three

dear god

thank you for today. as much as i often think i would rather be in heaven, chilling out and worshiping you i realize that you have a way for me to go in my journey to becoming more like you and that these days are how i will get there. thank you for being so patient with me as i try to learn.

thank you for all the good things you give me. friends, family, food, shelter, clothes, clean water, money that more than covers the necessities of life. please show me how to share these gifts with others who need these things in the best way that will bless them. i feel you calling me to share my home and family with a child in the foster care system. help us to make the right choice as we move forward and that we say yes to the right one not just pine away for another child to fill the desire to be a mom again. i feel you calling me to give food to the people i see asking on the road side. help me to treat these people with dignity and respect. please show us other ways to share the good gifts you've given us.

i pray for frank and ezekiel. please continue to remind me that you love them more than i do.

i pray for tylon. we don't know if he is the one you have picked out for us but we have said at every turn that we would follow through to the end any child you placed in front of us until we feel you are closing the door to that opportunity. give us wisdom as we move forward. thank you for communication from the social workers today. it is nice to hear from them even when we aren't getting anywhere concrete. at least i can see that we are getting closer to a decision.

i pray for amy frederick. i know she wants a child so bad and she admitted to having a rough day today. why do i know so many great women who long to be moms and it just won't happen naturally or without loss? i know you have a good plan for everything but i can't help but feel that these sad stories come from a fallen world and i ask that you end all this ugly soon and take us to heaven where we don't have to experience sadness and disappointment.

i pray that sean, colton and i could treat each other with respect and kindness and strive to serve each other. help sean and i to be good examples to colton and apologize when we fall short.

please help sean to feel that the hours he gets to sleep are multiplied and that he would feel healthy and strong and sharp during this season of so few hours in bed.

please convict me and then forgive me every time i fall short of bringing you glory.

amen...